Disappointment

Again, it disappoints me. I thought i can have a good timetable so that and again, i can have more free time to myself. but somehow and somewhat, no matter how i try to arrange my timetable, i couldn't make a good arrangement. I have been somewhat accepted the truth that i have to study for an extra semester though i need not and should not. Fine, and now, what i hope for is only a good timetable, more free time...but the truth shows me my hope is all down. It SUCKS...stupid timetable. It hangs somewhere in the middle of the day, then 2 hours break and then class for an hour then again 2 hours break and another 1 hour class. Come on.

From the statement above, it proves me something and it is something that i can't deny. I dislike my school life and i dislike utp. I feel stucked!! It is like someone is using a rope and tied me up and i got no way to run away from it no matter how hard i try to loose it. I tried to accept the fact that accept the worst case and find peace in the darkness theory. it makes sense but somehow, i really need time to endure with the stupid fucking hanging time. Arggggh..i think i am pretty disappointed with the things that happen around me again and again!! NOT FAIR AT ALL!! It sucks...People always tell me about enjoy your school life while you can, you will feel regret once you are graduated and feel appreciate about your school life, come on!! don't tell me all these crapping stuffs, what i need the most is get out of here, get out of the school life, get out and leave me alone!! I have been in school for 6 years just for a stupid degree and i have no idea on what i can apply in my life, i am so empty in my mind, all those theories that i have learnt is like something unrelated to me, why on earth i need to study something that i don't know what to use for in life?? what?? power distribution?? power transmission?? it is all crap to me..but ironically, it keeps on pulling me back with different reasons and different situations that make me can't run away from it!! good!!

Take Care, My Dear Zest

Dear Zest,

       A sudden call from you and an unexpected outing with you and of course, the most unexpected news from you. I have no idea that you are going to leave Malaysia and heading to UK, we have been talking about it since last year and i thought you have cancelled or maybe postponed you decision. I have been wondering what makes you this busy lately until you have no time to meet me and now i know and understand that you have made up your mind and you are going to your dream place or maybe a step nearer to your dream. I am really happy for you...no matter how many obstacles that you have to face and yet, you make it. Zest, I feel really really proud of you. We have been talking about going outside to the world together, to study together, to have fun together and now, you please enjoy my part first and i will try my best to join you later so that we can continue our fun and our dream together. Wow, there are plenty of dreams waiting us to be fulfilled and we have to make it comes true one by one :)

        Remember, whenever you feel tired or you need a friend to talk with, there is always a friend waiting you here, there is always a shoulder free to lend it to you when you need it. I know and understand that you are tough and strong enough to face the unknown and uncertain path in front of you but you have to give yourselves some rest space. Don't over used your mind and energy on the things that you are doing. Keep things simple. Take care, my dear Zest.

Warmest Regards,

Sarah

新年快乐

今天心血来潮，写了一点与新年有关的字句，望每个人都能快乐，安康 :)

兔气扬眉新一年，
来了福报又来财，
福星拱照旺你家，
到了年尾笑哈哈，
庆团圆时倍感恩，
丰衣足食身体壮，
年年有余祝安康。

好像有点"leong"...hahaha..

The Way We Are

At last, I watched this movie that I have been longing for at least 1.5 years. Before that, I have no way to watch this movie as ipoh cinemas never showed it and it showed only in KL cinemas. I told my friends that i like to read book without any peak point, I like the plain and slowly tell us their life and their living kind of book and yea, this it is..it's exactly showing what i like the most... It is such a good movie. There is no story line, no peak, it just some ways slowly telling us the way of people living, their way of talking, their way of eating and even the way of them making fun of themselves. It's so simple and yet it leaves us space to think. Not much people can make such a theme of movie to this level of presenting, so it's pretty amazing..haha..a nice movie that i would like to share with you.

The meaning of LOVE

Love is beyond everything else - anxiety, desire, hope, resentment. 

Love is openhearted, demands nothing, and needs nothing

It is more likely to visit when our desires are quiet, when we don't need or want much, and when we accept that everything we love is not permanent but is with us at this very moment! 

From the book of Daniel Gottlieb - Learning from the Heart

This is what love means for and this is the kind of love that i am looking forward. A love that never ask for returns and a love that never counted by how much or how deep it is. 

secret rainbow

i feel calm when i listen to this song...

so, i would like to share this with you...

i wish you happy always