14th day

I have finished the book- Factory Girls. It vividly describing the life of a migrant from the poorer site of China to Donguan or Guangzhou to work. Though our life in malaysia is much better than what i read from the book, it has a lot of similarities between china chinese and we, malaysian chinese. I think pretty much, we have been deeply influencing by our ancestors or the education way from them. The way we learn english and the way we think, it's easy to find the similarities in the book. Even now, the way we think is still so chinese, so based to our own culture and way of living. We have not been able to run out of our circle. We feel shy and we tend to keep quiet whenever we are not in our comfortable zone to talk. We tend to stick with our group and ignore the outside world. This is the type of chinese that i have seen and met and of course i am in this group too. Of course, there are much more un-chinese chinese out there that we should learn from so that we can be more generous, be more open-minded and be more sociable than you can ever imagine. 

and, I am now reading on another book called - I know why the caged bird sings. 

belated 9th day

Chapter 1

Ooo, today started off with totally bad mood. I was totally, utterly affected by the call last night until i couldn't sleep for the whole night. A sleepless night + bad mood! sucks and bull shit! yeap, it sounds a bit too 'argg' and too uneducated for me to say out bullshit here...but anyway, who cares, it's my blog and who cares to read it and comment on it, i am the one who own this and i can write whatever that i like. 

ok, though it was a bad day, i can do nothing to save it. But, i remind of a person's saying, do not show your black face to people though you are totally in a bad mood, smile and at least please don't ever influence the person that is with you. ok, today, i remember this and i use his quote to stay for the day,i smile instead. 

End

Chapter 2

Today, i went to KL with my grandpa since i promise will accompany him to meet the doctor in KL. I reached KL and meet with my cousins and uncle. Cool, still they look that adorable and warm to me. No strange feeling, like you meeting someone new. At night, as usual, my cousins show me his homework and ask me to teach him words that he doesn't know and to make sentences from a new vocabulary. Wow, this time, it was a challenging task, he told me that he needed to finish up 70 sentences in a night. To make sentences from 70 vocabulary? oh my goodness! how can a primary student be able to do that? Of course, since i was there, and he asked, and so and for sure i need to take up that responsibility to teach him and guide him through the 70 challenges! hahahaha...guess what, my little cute cousin managed to finish that within 2 hours!!

End

Chapter 3

By the time, i felt like taking my own sweet time to take a rest and to watch a movie, then suddenly, a soft voice, always that soft voice came from my cousin and said: "yee jie jie, can you do revision with me for my history subject, please??" 

" what? history?? ooo, my show time!! since history is one of my strongest subjects and i can tell you stories again!"

I peeped on my pretty cousin and i can see her face expression was like : oh no, story time! how i wish i can skip the time and just lay on my bed. 

There was 3 chapters, ooo, luckily only 3 chapters since it was quite late and i felt tired too but anyway, i should help of what i can help and teach of i can teach to them. I started my long winded but i presumed it to be funny and interesting way to remember our history to my cousin. Yea, luckily she didn't fall asleep and at least showed me that she was interested in it as well and i flip page by page until the last page where it stated page 70! wow, today, 70 is my number and i met 70 twice! hahahahahhaha...

I was happy. Yes, to manage to give out my knowledge or to help them in ways that i can afford make me happy. I was somehow enjoyed being a teacher for the day! if i were not an engineer, most probably, i will be a teacher!

End

第八天之等

无限期的等，真是苦涩

7th day

Sunday. I went to the crowdest place in Ipoh today. It was stadium indera putra where a PC fair was held in there. Crowded. Full of people. Everyone cramped in the hall, walked by touching shoulder to shoulder. Noise was everywhere and i cramped in the place to look for a laptop with a friend. Luckily we found it, we found the ideal laptop that he wanted to buy and of course i like his attitude that he straight away get that laptop without bargaining or questioning the sales person like normal people do. Basically, the laptop deal done within an hour. From looking, searching, withdrawing money till the process of paying. Cool. 

6th day

Wow, amazing is the only word that i could use to describe my day. I have not been that fully paying attention to my studies before. I studied for the whole day, from 10am till 9pm. I am good. I am doing revision. I am paying a great effort in this digital electronic chapter. To my amusement, i am actually picking up some left out knowledge or something that i have learnt but forgotten for long. I am enjoying in doing this revision, to understand what are all those components about. Of course, my day is not going to end like this. A movie, a book, a prayer is waiting me. Keep the days busy and of course to stay focus and POSITIVE! 

5th day之IRC

今天回去，但不知何时我才会再一次踏足于这个陪了我很久的地方，

我很喜欢很喜欢她，

我很喜欢很喜欢这一栋建筑物，

她的外貌真的把我深深吸引，她的内涵更不用说，卧虎藏龙

她是一个让我迷峦的地方

她是一个让我舍不得的地方

她是一个让我因为她而做出重要选择的地方

UTP的IRC

我要谢谢她带给我无限的空间, 无限的书中娱乐

她绝对的是UTP的灵魂人物

赞！

4th day

Today, i woke up early as i have planned to settle some documents in the government department. Since i have a lunch appointment with my supervisor and so, i planned to settle my documents in the morning. My mom felt surprise that i even woke up that early..hahahaha...ok, back to my main topic, I took my breakfast and made my time to go out. I planned to go to the police station to get the signature of the officer since it stated in my document that it needs to be certified by the government servant. Once i reached there at 10am, i walked gracefully into the police station and requested politely to one of the officers to ask him to certify all my documents. Wow, of course i was happy since all the procedures went on smoothly and by the time i felt happy that i can settle my things earlier, damn, here comes the problem,

the officer said :" where should i sign your document?" 

I said:" Sir, here it is."

" Erm, ok, since it mentioned that it needs the signature from different group of government servant and my grade is different of what you requested, i don't think i can help you to sign on it, you better look for someone else to sign it for you."

" Oh no no no, sir, it stated only this grade and above and i believe you grade is higher than what is requested, so it shouldn't be a problem for you to sign for me."

" Ok, i understand your situation but still for a secure site, you better take your documents and get the signature from someone else, erm, a principal is good to sign for you."

" Erm, ok, sir, in that case, i will turn to the principal then, thanks for your time."

" Ok, sure. remember to take back all your relevant documents."

" Ok, yes, sir and goodbye sir."

Oh, as what I have worried about, how can things move smoothly for me, sure there are somethings that stop me from finishing it. Ok, here it is. I can't get the signature easily and i need to find the principal of my old school to sign on it. Without any hesitation, i drove back to my old school and walked into the gate where i have not stepped in for a few years time. By that time i reached, it was the recess time and all the teachers and principal were having meeting, i waited in the office and remembered back all those good old school days. Wow, my school changed a lot, even the office has been renovated and fully air conditioned, last time, it was so hot and stuffy inside the office but now, things changed and improved a lot. I saw the teachers' name on the name board, half of it, i don't even know who is he or she. All are new names to me. 

While i was still soaking in my good old days memories, here came in an aunty, erm, i shall said, a new face. I thought she must be a new clerk or new teacher. Oh my, to my surprise, she walked straight into the principal room and sat down on the high back chair!! Oh no, only then i remembered my sister told me once that my last time principal has already retired!! 

I walked into her room, knocked on the door and said: "Good morning principal, i would like you to help me to sign on a document and to certify some documents as well. Can i come in by the way?"

" Oh, good morning, come on in. So, are you student of PGS?" 

" Yea, I was a student here and graduated in year 2004."

" Wow, have you came back to school before? why i have not seen you? students are normally like that, only come back to ask us to help her to sign on some documents but never really come back to school."

Oh damn, that's the main reason why i don't really want to go back to school at first and ask school teacher to sign for me!! They tend to tell me that i am like 无事不登三宝殿 and make me feel speechless..totally speechless at that moment....

Ok, fine. I know that the consequence of not keeping contact with your old school and you will get some response like that. However, school is still a school, it acts like a mother, no matter what you have done to her and still she will accept you as whom you are. The principal helped me to sign on my documents and told me some good words. Phew, that's it. done! I get the signature of my principal on my documents, I managed to certify all my documents and let's send it out! one thing is done! thank god. 

3rd day

Unpacking my cloths from my luggage is actually a big and challenging task. I didn't realize that i have not enough space to put in all my cloths into the drawers. Basically, my picky attitude has given me a chance to rearrange all my cloths according to colors, frequency of wearing it, occasion or formal wear and also some cloths that i-bought-but-never-wear categories. It took me nearly two hours to unpack and kept it into the drawer and of course categorized all my cloths according to my initial plan. Phew...while i was having my rest on the bed, "ting" suddenly, an idea crossed my mind where i felt like helping my sister to keep and arrange her drawer too!! wahahahahaha...since my sister is not around and for sure she wouldn't mind for having an "ah sei" to help her to clean and rearrange her cloths, then woo...here i am, i help her to fold her shirt, to categorize her shirt to different categories and of course to "steal" her shirt and let it be my shirt then!! hahahaha, thanks sis!! 

After working on this kind of folding and unfolding cloths task, i felt tired! but i don't want to leave the day like this, and i found myself a book, an unfinished book to read on and no matter where i stop reading that book, i can quickly attracted back into the storyline and catch back what i have left behind. yeah, can fill my days with this awesome book and understand part of the life in China through her. 

2nd day

It has been the second day for not being a student and what i have done for the day? ok, let me share it out here. Today, it is quite a fruitful day, at least, i kept my promise and i went to wesak celebration and chanting at my friend's place. A short ceremony has been conducted before the "shower buddha" ceremony started. Of course, i miss the chanting and the peace of chanting for long and at last, i managed to chant with a group of people and found back the moment of being a devoted buddhist. I have long forgotten about that feeling of chanting as i have always told myself, sarah, you have no time to chant, no time for all these, as long as god is in your heart, then you will be good. Basically, i am bluffing myself about it, everything, you need to work on it, to pay effort on it and to work on it. It is not about feeling, it's about my faith into it. I started not to believe in it and tend to focus on my own thoughts where I realized it is leading me to another way that i don't really appreciate it as well. 凡事都必需经营的, 无论是亲情，友情，爱情， 学业或事业，你不付出又如何懂的珍惜，又如何谈的上拥有呢?

After the wesak ceremony, i went for a movie with my friend. i have not stepped into a cinema for at least 3 months and today, i am lucky enough to watch a good and recommended movie in a cinema to let myself feel the fast and furious sensation movie!! haha, yup, that's right, i went to that fast and furious 5 movie, wow..their driving skill is unbeatable, amazing and stunned is the only word that i can describe for that movie!! it is a satisfaction for my eyes and ears. By listening to the engine sound and looking at the fast driving skill, it makes me feel like driving fast too!! hahahaha...(for those who know me, they will know about my "unbeatable" driving skill, hahahhahahaha). 

After the movie, of course, shopping is followed right behind, i found a very nice dress, creamy white color, with one kind of fabric that i like it so much, the length of the skirt is exactly before my knee, it makes me look slim and both of my legs look long enough with that elegant dress on. I wish to own it but wait, i don't have enough money to own that dress or at least at the moment, i can't support myself for that dress yet and that dress needs to queue up too until i finish buying my dream shopping list first:  

1. ipod shuffle

2. sun glasses

3. leather purse

4. nice watch (challenging task)

5. camera

6. a pair of nice sandals (a nice one!!)

7. “白饭鱼”

8. 三毛书

9. a new handphone 

10. creamy white dress ( maybe this no.10 item should be prioritized as it will be sold out and can't find it next time)

1st day

It has been the first day of not being a student and i have been somehow a jobless lady for the 1st day. I am an impatient person. I do not know on how long i can wait for the first call from the companies that i have applied. I have been waited for at least 3 months and still I am jobless. My plan is to get a job before I graduated but now, things changed and i need to fit myself into the situation whereby i cannot get a job easily. My friends told me that, sarah, wait patiently, good things will come to you one day and i do believe in them, good things may come to me one day :)  

People tend to tell me that i am a person that need to fill my time with a lot of stuffs and a lot of tasks. Yea, basically, i am this kind of person, because, without any jobs and tasks and assignments, my day, at least, my first day, i have already felt bored and aimless. I don't really know what to do to fill in my days, so i plan to make my following days with all these kind of activities:

1. Attend Wesak Day Celebration

2. Watch a movie

3. Unpack my luggage

4. Plan my Australia trip

5. Of course, keep on applying for jobs

6. Have lunch with supervisor

7. Complete my clearance form

8. Jogging 

9. Reading

10. Rearrange my documents in laptop, hardisk and pendrive

11. Settle Nottingham english requirement task

12. Settle scholarship problem

13. Rearrange my books

14. Cooking (of course, it's time to learn it, since I am free and no longer got the excuse to avoid of cooking, who knows i might find the satisfaction in cooking and enjoy it one day)

wow, ok, i am busy and i prefer to be like this busy ever. At least, i can fill my days with all these tasks and let me stay focus in my work and i need not have to keep on thinking about job findings and that someone far away.