one step behind

one step behind,
things may drag behind,
people tend to say, enjoy while you can,
but i know i prefer to leave,
i prefer to fulfill my dream by doing things according to my plan,
i might be pragmatic upon my planning,
but this is what i hope to see,
i wish my dream comes true a little bit faster,
i wish to control my free life a little bit faster,
though a simple three months do not influence much,
the feeling of being trapped keep on arousing in my mind,
if i have yet to plan anything, the three months are as if a gift of time,
but now, things changed, i have plans,
so, a minute of being here is killing me,
anyhow, i have to accept the truth,
means, thought needs to be changed,
mind needs to be adjusted,
really have to practice on using the power of now.